where does that responsability begin?

Ugh... there it is... that dreaded "r" word. A word I have spent a great deal of my life running from. A word that inspired recored titles like Escape is the Safest Bet (2003) and lines from songs like "I imagine now that it was all a dream cause it would be much easier than responsabilty" from the song An Act of Treason.

That song was recorded in Victoria at the end of 2003. Part of the Grace Will Be Victorious sessions, and later to appear on the 2004 release The Neccessity to be Free which can be heard and downloaded for free at www.thisisthewaytheworldends.com

Ahhh... responsability.
I don't like to think that I am guilty of anything or that I have been a failure at anything, yet both of these words are entirely romantic ideas. Maybe I make them romantic because I know I am them both. I am guilty and I am a failure.

Instead of sitting around and wallowing in that, I actually try and better myself. I try and learn from my mistakes. You know, to become something better than I am.

In the process, I know I am no ones salvation. Sometimes we need to be humbled, and what better way to do it than to make us feel guilty and/or like a failure?

Another lines from another song off that free record o' mine comes to me.
Taken from the song, The Best Jesus I've Ever Seen:

"I don't like to think God is bringing me to the brink just to prove something to me."

I may not like to think it, but I have learned to know it. And yes, I am a failure because I keep putting myself back in a place for this to happen. Disobedience is a portal as much as repentance is.