nicecanada

What do you do when you are minding your own buisness, writing, and suddenly someone sends you a "hello" on the msn. You look at your status and curse under you breath because you could have sworn you set your status to "Away."
It wouldn't be such a dilema but the person contacting you is a girl you had the unfortunate buisness of diluding yourself into thinking she was worthy of your friendship. But she turned out to be one of those flimsy crack whore types who think every male in the world must want only to sleep with them. It takes about all your restraint to not slap her in the face and say, "Wake up. You know what? Your are NOT Cameron Diaz. And even if you were, I never liked her anyway, so climb off your high horse."

If your like me, you just don't answer back. You hope maybe she will just think you are not there, and you forgot to turn your msn off before leaving. Because really, there is a bit of guilt because you want to be a good person and a forgiving one. And then you remember... actually it's more like an echo from somewhere in your past... and it seems to be screaming at you: "Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me."

When you realize you have been fooled too many times by the same person, you begin to wonder if maybe they just ain't gonna change. And then it just seems like there is no point anymore.

Am I trying to talk myself out of guilt? Is this just one more attempt at justifying selfsihness?
You decide.