indecisive

I am glad I do not know the future. I would either try and change it or make it happen right away.

Anyone that has known me long enough has heard me say that. Been saying it since I was a teenager. And it's still true.
The differance at 30 is that now I plan a little bit more. I still don't want to know the future but it helps to have a plan and set some goals. With a goal, almost anything is bearable.

Nearly six months has passed since I arrived in mad cow town. I have had about a bazillion ideas on what wopuld be next for my life, and after all of them, I come full circle. It wasn't bad to have all those ideas, because ultimatly they made me more resolute about what IS next.
And in the process I elarned something more about myself. I learned a whole lot more about disapointment, also. That's one thing that never seems to go away.

But anyway, all things work for the best. (another wise old me saying)
Wanna here another? "We are always changing. We are always getting better than we were."

So what do I think is next for me? Well, right now the Field Theory demo's are turnign into a record. That was a goal as far back as Maui. Working with John was a goal as far back as forever, almost.
I am happy with the way things have gone.

Australia should be a twist of lime in my vodka. But after that, I realize that all along Europe has been pounding on the door. It keeps knocking and saying, "Come back, this is where you belong."

As for all of the things (people) along the way, most of them have been distractions. I am more ready than ever to write of my friends. It is time to get back up on my desk.