Day Eight (2)

tamae called. confortable enough. mentioned a fire at her house maybe tomorrow. we will see. I am glad for the strength to wait and let her call me. it needed to happen that way.

~The Dream

I was with a friend and we were wndering through some backstreets in Victoria looking for this party. The girl I was with was someone who I had been seeing a lot of lately, though she had a boyfriend.We winded our way through these cobblestone streets and down little passageways and ginnaly down a hall. A door opened and instead of the destination being something really cool, it was actually just some guys house.We entered and somoene said something to me, as if they knoew me, but I don't think they did.Sometime in the night she turned and told me that she decided to not only stay in the relationship with her boyfriend, but that she had decided she would marry him. Thye were going to get married and it was soon.When we left this party, it was leaving a completely fifferent way. We had to go past these security checkpoints, and we caught a ride to the gates with a lady who was drivign a gezabo for a truck.The next thing I remember was being across the city from where I needed to be. the only way to get where I needed was to drive the cab that was parked outside.The streets were fairly deserted because it was night, and by the time I arrived, I actually made twenty dollars in cab fair because I had driven someone to a desination nearby.I got out of the car and wlaked into some kind of church.There were a few people inside the church walking around. It seemed very dark and I don't think there were any chairs. We were all on our feet attempting to talk with a presence in the room.The one in charge looked a lot like Picard (from Start Trek) and he was saying "I am nothing. I have been brought to nothing so that you will replace me and take me away. Come and take me away."I remember wishing I had a pen so I could write down his exact words.Then I was at some kind of camp. I beluieve it was the last day becase I was helping them move many things out. I knew it would be the last day. Amidst moving, I was also preparing a meal for the girl who had previously told me that she was going to marry her boyfriend.I was very distraught because I really liked her and couldn't believe she was making what I percieved to be such a mistake. It was obvious that she was in total denial about the feelings we had for each other.When dinner was served she ate quietly with her sister. They did not speak much. After the meal, we were all going to explore the conservatory, but she asked if we were all to do this together. My reply was, " I am sure you would prefer if we didn't" and then they left.I was so upset because all I wanted to do was talk with her. I wanted to know how she couold just walk away from everything we had shared to marry someone who was only gonna prevent her from being the person she wanted to be.I suppose that I should have been glad this was happeneing. It would have been terrible to actually wind up with someone so indecisive, because that is a trait that would last for the rest of our relationship.I was so upset I left the building and did not even try and find them at the conservatory. I knew it was the last day and figured maybe I could avoid seeing her at all now. Then she would be gone.I decided to go for a walk and get my discman because I really wanted to listen to "Girl from a Pawnshop" by The Black Crowes.